Nobody tells you about the drive home. The test is over, the answer is no again, and somehow you still have to start the car, pull out of the parking lot, and get yourself back to a life that expects you to function.<\/p>\n
Psalm 34:18 says, “The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit” (KJV). Nigh means near. Not far off, not waiting for you to feel better first. Near, in the car, in the silence, in the version of you that doesn’t have the strength to pray in full sentences right now.<\/p>\n
If that’s where you are today, this can be your whole prayer:<\/p>\n
Lord, You see this no. You saw it before I did. I don’t understand Your timing and I’m not asking You to explain it right now. I’m just asking You to be near me on this drive, and near me tonight, and near me tomorrow morning when I have to decide whether to hope again. If it is Your will, please bless me with a child. Until then, hold what I can’t. In Jesus’ name, amen.<\/em><\/p>\n You are not required to feel strong today. You are not behind, and you are not being punished. You are a person God is near to, in a car, on an ordinary road, carrying something heavy. That is enough of a prayer for right now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" For the drive home after another negative test: God is near to the brokenhearted, even in the silence of the car.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-56","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-praying-for-a-baby"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=56"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/56\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=56"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=56"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kalindagrace.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=56"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}